If time could stop..

When i calmed down he said,"In one hour i have to take the bus and return to my hospital.Take this.I wrote it when you passed out in our hotel room,you will read that when you ll know about my operation,you promise me?"he asked and i nod my head as a yes."And if i wasnt sick but i would have met you ,be sure i would be with you till the end of your journey"he said like he had read my mind.At his words my heart ached and i felt like life is meaningless.I know i met him just today but its unfair for both of us,to get separated ...."Will you walk with me till the station"he asked me,i want to avoid his puppy eyes,i said yes and we took the road to the bus station.Again there was this awkward now silence between us,i could feel him worried,sad and in pain.His eyes were dark,and he was looking tired and exhausted that my heart sinked.I took his hand and hold it in mine ,he looked at me and whispered to my ear"Im sorry".The bus came and he got in,he wave me goodbye.What?He really though i would stand there for a minute and then take the next bus to another destination?Hell no.Before the driver close the door,i got into the bus.He seemes puzzled and a bit melancholic,i sat beside him."Did you really think that i would leave you alone,at this time.?No way.I want to be with you,can you understand this?Im in pain but you are in more pain than i am,I want to be by your side and i will,and if that time comes ill follow you into the dark...Hearing my words made him even worse,the man i was with before turned to a little scared boy.He put his head on my lap again,and i could hear him breathing,trying hard to breath,i kissed his cheek and whispered on his ear:If i could flow like the wind i would reach you if i could shine like a moon i would keep shining on you" while i kept on my necklace with the word "Forever"curved on.When reached the hospital,it was 6.30,he got into his room,the nurse got him ready for the operation,and they let me stay for half an hour till the operation started."I sat on the chair beside his bed,he was looking so fragile,if i could i would give him my life,but i couldnt.I wanted to tell him that ill be waiting for him,that tomorrow i would bring him a cake after the succesfully done operation.Without realising it half an hour had passed.He told me to lower my head and he kissed me.He kissed me goodbye..Before leaving he said"You will be always my Mika,farewell Aya"he said while the nurse turned his wheelchair.
I stand there helpless,wondering how did he know my name,not that it matters anyway.

ps.from my story "I still remember",completed