"What do i see from my window at the moment"

"Its Sunday night,well actually its Monday morning ,i usually dont open the windows in my bedroom as i prefer darkness ,it calms me down,but today i want to see ,i want to see the moon,the next to mine houses and try to guess whos living there or how do they look like,their lives.But for a moment i dont see a thing that exists,only colors ,people who come and go,music in the air,i can feel love too but i can also feel loneliness,i can see people dancing but i can also see people lost in their thoughs ."It kinda wears me out seeing these stuff,but i dont want to stop because i know that if it stops ill be alone again ,in my room and my darkness,listening to japanese rock songs that make me hopeful for the future but lonely at the present."I want to get out of the room ,like a bird flying of its cage,free at last,able to spread its wings and fly for a moment and then die from happiness."I close my eyes,i can feel it,my wings are telling me to fly,small movements of their own but something s holding them back.But i know that there will be a time that ill be flying far away from here,being happy ,loved and free.