When the lights go out..

Well here i am ...again ..after a long time .Being busy with exams and many things sucks.So i hadnt much time to update my little blog.These days i must admit i ve been writing a lot.Working on a fanfic and also..*tararararaarar* trying to make some changes on my story(for the better of course)so i can send it to publishing houses.Yep yep thats a huge thing for me as all you know.>_< I hope for the best,cause i just love it.I love writing .I think that people will read my stories cause its not that i write something difficult to follow or difficult to understand. Anyway these days i cant say that im happy or something..but im fighting for my happiness and my dreams.Lately im thinking again that i made many mistakes ,and i kinda lost the way to my happiness,but i dont wanna regret.Ill just try to make something out of this.After all you learn from your mistakes they say.Thats what im saying to myself all day,but when the lights go out everything seems to haunt me.Everything that stress me in the form of ghosts that dont let me sleep.And so i got insomniac ...which is worse..cause i feel like sleeping everywhere,when and where i shouldnt.My body feels heavy,and its even heavier when u walk or wander around,my face looks tired and people think im sick.Its just that when the lights go out...everything i hate and everything i fear is right in front of me..and i cant sleep.