"I have to write,i want to write but i cant..and i m sad about this..I dont seem to focus or concetrate and i cant hold a pencil or pen and start writing i just cant.And i want to write sooo bad,oh yeah i do.I also want to and have to forget because if i dont i wont be able to move on,to breath without having a problem and to live but still theres something holding me back,maybe its me maybe its someone else,who knows...trust me,i dont.I have to and i want to dream and its been a long since the last time i had a dream and it feels soo lonely.I want to daydream again about me being with someone in a beautiful place like the places in my stories,full of flowers and blue,bably blue and clouds ,white clouds,just me and this person by my side...i dont know who he is though.I want to dream again that im in tokyo living my dream,thinking"Yeah i finally made it and here i am,im in Tokyo,and even if i die tomorrow ive seen Tokyo and its beautiful decadance.Tokyo decadance like Murakami's masterpiece .Its all about sex honey,deal with it,even our little thoughs are about sex,we are products of sex anyway..(thats the whole concept in murakami's movie).I want to and have to remember but i cant...i cant remember why i study my ass off this year..just to get in this university which makes me trully unhappy...maybe its the root of all evil..woah...
And in the end,you have to and you want to take me to Japan but u cant....T_T
PS.ive been a weirdo from times to times ,this is one time too.I <3 you all
xxx
Julie
Oh, Julie.
ReplyDeleteYou share my thoughts and you also share my dreams. I have so often thoughts like this and I'm so sad about it :(
I often think that I'm born in the wrong place because there are so many people and so many things which are not suitable for me...
and then I see pictures like that, pictures of Tokyo, and I wanna be there so bad. Just seeing it ones - live - with my own eyes. Just travel through Japan once just speak with one japanese perosn once~just once...
♥
Honey u know that we will make it and we will go there ..and dont forget ure the aunt of my half greek half korean babies.so ull be at seoul a lot.ne?
ReplyDeletebut honey i dont want u to be sad.u know we will make it.
~no I will never give up this dream, don't worry. and you will be the cutiest aunt ever >o<
ReplyDeletehah~it would be soooo wonderful to go there together with you :)
Hmm maybe we can go together with u.hahah
ReplyDeleteafter u finish school.ill go to austria to find u and then we ll go to find our future partners.lol